I'm Not Good Enough - Dramatic Monologue
I'm not good enough. It seems as if I spend my life in a sail boat, on a near tranquil sea, and suddenly an enormous wave washes over me until I can't breathe, it feels as if I'm drowning. All will be fine until one person accidentally says or does the wrong thing, and bam... I'm suffocated. Everything around me is dark.
I am no ones first choice. I am never number one. I am always following, never leading.
I feel sick. Nauseated. Self destructive.
I live almost alone, telling myself that it's by coincidence. It never is. It is always purposeful. Always. I pleaded for companionship but my call was never answered. I acted as if I hadn't noticed. Of course I fucking had.
I began to deteriorate, stop believing in anything and anyone, stopped loving the things I loved because I knew it was pointless.
Until he came along. This boy changed my life. No, he is not my boyfriend. The platonic relationship we have is all I need.
He makes me feel as though I am loved, I am needed, I am wanted. Even in my darkest of hours He picks me up, brushes my off, and tells me to woman up.
I need that to carry on.
Without him I don't know where I would be?
Stay Classy,
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